A Little Turtle

Monday, October 17, 2011

p/s: I Love You

Man: I love you.

Woman: So what?

Man: SO MANY!


Man: I love You.

Woman: I love you MORE.

Wednesday, May 18, 2011

There is a Home- Still

There is a home-still,
lonely and quite,
no laugh or cry heard,
only left flocks of birds around.

There is a home-still
there were owners,
chilled their offspring with inspiration,
Home sweet home.

Still- there is a home,
shabby and silent day by day,
waiting for the offspring
to cheer the house again.

Still- there is a home,
live a girl with her memory,
standing in front of the window,
with new view...view without its owner.

Still- there is a home,
waiting them to come and gather,
with joy, love and laugh,
even the world falls apart,
there always lie a memory...
of owner, their offspring and the home.

Saturday, April 30, 2011

A Little Turtle



I'm a little Turtle,
fame of slowness but delligent,
short legs,hiding head in the hard shell.

I'm a little Turtle,
slowness is not a failure, when delligent complements.

I'm a little Turtle,
unable to turn head back,
looking forwards for the dream.

I'm a little Turtle,
doesn't care what others say,
slowness is not a failure, when delligent complements.

I'm a little Turtle,
walking with shorted legs,
the end of the journey is far from the distance,
keep walking further and further.

I'm a little Turtle,
hold the dream with pride on my shell,
'slowness is not a failure, when delligent complements'.

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

My School TeacherS Said

My Bahasa Melayu Teacher said:

'The best memory is not in your brain, but what you jot down on note.'

It happened when we just listened to her lecture but didn't jot down the lesson. So i still remember until today.

My friends always asked me, 'do you understand the lecture? what did you keep write down?' And i told them about my BM teacher's story.

Her name is Cikgu Hanila. She inspires students to love the subjects. She makes us laugh. Most of students don't like BM especially essay. But, she makes us love it and score A!


My History Teacher Said:


'Make thousands of friends but never find a single of enemies!'

He loves to tell about HIS story not HISTtory. haha... he talked about his principle.
We may ignore what he said because he kept murmuring about his life. But he is right!

I never have enemy before, until recently i got one!

it is so miserable. when you have enemy.

My History teacher is Cikgu Nozid!

My Arabic Teacher Said:
'You can't memories the conversations between your soul and Angel of Death in your grave!'

She nagged at us when we played around and didn't memories what she taught. I think we learnt issues about tawheed. But you know, Arabic teacher always cums religious teacher.

Why i still remeber this? it was when i in form 1, i think!

here it is.

I sat in front row of tables. She stood in front of me, and said:

When you died, what were the answers you will give to Angel of Death when he asks 'who is your God?','Who is your prophet?'. Can you sure able to answer that?'

I suddenly told my heart, 'Easy, i can memorize those sentences!'

AND she pop up with the counter attack of my heart saying 'YOU CAN'T MEMORIZE THAT!' which makes me remember it until today.

Her name is Ustazah Zubaidah. Her sweet daughter was my brother's first love!' haha.


My Commerce Teacher Said:


'Who left this shit on blackboard, hah?'

Wow! It happened when the chalked writing on blackboard is not erased and he needed to use it when he came in.

It was our fault! we forgot! you know why? His class was after the break session and so... a class before the break, we just rushed out from the class! School students!

if you late, you have to be at last in que up or nothing left for you except sirrup drink and hard kepok lekor!

What i learn from this 'shit' is: Until i finished my degree study, i always volunteer myself to erase the whiteboard everytimes i come into the class!AND I WILL DO IT FOREVER!

That 'shit' is valuable, though! :)

His name is Cikgu Razali.

My Science teacher said:

'The higher your position is, the more active you become!'

GUESS what is it?

Haha, Malay students were hard to participate and answer the quetions posted by teacher, what more to ask!

so, my teacher let all of us to stand and whoever can answer the questions he/she may sit!

So, his hypothesis is correct!

His name is Cikgu Aziz.

This were among the inspired stories from my teachers that keep me motivated, inspired, positive and helpful to others.

Thank you teacher!

Thursday, April 21, 2011

My Love Stories part.2

Stage 2: My Sad Love

I notice i love someone in a long term. Same goes to my second person taken my heart away, I love him 4 years too!

we did love each other. i waited for him. we continued our studies in different universities but it was just easy for us to date. but we didn't! we chose to not to! we agreed on that! we stayed with on-line relationship within 4 years! we did it!

He is such a good guy!
to me!
to his mom!
to his family!
to friends!

but he cant hold me on longer.
because i didn't allow to...

i wrote many poems about him. about how i long to him, how i deep in love with him, how i can't wait any longer, how i regret does not be a good lover to him. i expressed them in my poems. what is funny, sometimes i texted him with a very long messages. when i wrote in English, he said 'i don't understand!' but i still love him..


there were reasons i left him finally,
1. HE IS A GOOD GUY, I DONT THINK I AM.
2. He let me control decisions which deep inside i don't want that way. but i think he meant to show repect to my thought!
3. I don't complement his life! that is what i thought! HE GAVE, I TAKE, BUT I DONT GIVE AND HE DIDN'T RECEIVE!
4. My principle in relationship: I WANT TO COMPLEMENT MY LOVER MORE THAN HE GIVES TO ME!
5. He is a good guy but does not mean to be with me. Good does not mean you are suit together. sometimes you feel uneasy with his kindness because you feel it is unfair. you don't give equal to him! that was my thought led to leave him!


i'm glad i left him! i wasn't sincere being with him! i let his kindness chained my heart to stick with him which i believe his kindness won't stick my heart!

i always think my fragile future with him! i need a person who can guide me! but throughout 4 years he let me in everythings!

he does not know this. if he happens to be my reader, then i want to say this to him:

dear my (ex) lover,

i had a good time being your lover, i know our friends will say i'm ungrateful, letting go a good person like you. and you will keep thinking why i left you. until the end i can't even tell you. you may felt it unfair but i just can't tell you your fault.

i can't say a single fault of you after what you have done to me! you waited for me, you respect me. i believe a good person like you is not meant to be with a bad girl like me!

swap away your sadness for this ending love.

i'm happy i let you go, i give you a chance to get a better girl than me!

i didn't contact you for the fact i respect my decision. i respect your life. i shouln't interfere with your life anymore. For the fact that i just can't be friend with you as you had been my lover for 4 years.

just wanna let you know. i teared a lot being with you. i miss you a lot more than i long to my first love. i afraid thinking that you were not by my side. but i never doubt you would leave me!


THEN I DECIDE, I MUST LEAVE YOU.....

Hm.. i wrote this entry with my heart. i pour what i kept inside. i hope he happens to read this and i believe he know that person is he.

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

My Love Stories

Stage 1: Puppy Love (It hurted!!!)

I would consider that as my LOVE AT THE FIRST SIGHT!

the unheard-unsaid-unknown love to a hansome boy since standard 6 until form 4!
i never have a change to talk with him, i'm so shy.

that is my symptom!
if i love someone, i become so shy to him!

he has a very nice voice, he represented the school in singing competitions/ quranic recitation!

he was a prefect, so did i. but he always late to school and i happenned to monitor in front of the gate! which i think that is the most popular spot for prefect to carry their duty. students see their faces everday! with their name tags! they get promotion!

IT HURTED!

When i only love him but he does not know, he never realize my existence, never remember me, never want to know me closer, ever hope me will walk in front of him, never bother what happen to me, and even does not bother to know my name!!!

While me,

so excited going to school hoping to see him everyday, if not i feel so sad and hope for the day will quickly ends, so i could see him again. i miss him.i hate holidays because i know i wouldn't be able to see him. i watched him singing on the stage, reciting quran, i listened to his lovely voice with my heart.i watched him walked through my class. Oh my! Though he never bother about me, i know most about him!

it happened during photographic session for new line-up prefect and he happened to stand next to me!!! i was shocked!trembled!and my heart bursted to excitement!

I still missing him and love remain to him even after he transfer to high school! i missed him! i waited to see him whenever there were competitions held in my school because i believed he would attend as particpant or as visited student or as supporter! and i was right! he was there in front of my eyes but he did not see me, nor to know what my sight meant to him! I MISS YOU!!!That was it mean!

At last, i got to know that he became my sister's classmate and visited our house during eid celebration! BUT I WAS NOT THERE!!! Oh my!

I was not sure if this love is going to end up somewhere or no where.
but what i must say...

It was so hurt-hearted love. unsaid 4 years love to the person who never know my existence. I found out from my sister he was dating with her friend! I was so sad!

but, i kept praying to forget him! because it hurted my heart so much within 4 years. i just cant stand it for another year or years. I just want to forget him!

I DID!

After my form 3, i went to the high school where he studying and it happened on afternoon after school time. I waited for my brother fetching me, sat at the stair talking with friend.
he came suddenly to went-up by the same stair, with his good and smart looking. i was shocked! my first time after graduated from old school! I SEE YOU AGAIN!!!

"you girls dont go home yet?" He asked. and my friend replied on behave of both of us. i still shocked. there was something i said to him after that , i couldn't remember except he smiled back to me!AND I REMEMBER THAT SMILE UNTIL TODAY. SUCH A SWEET SMILE!

THAT WAS IT!

THE FIRST AND THE LAST SHORT CONVERSATION BETWEEN US AFTER I DEVOTED MY HEART FOR 4 YEARS TO HIM.

BUT...I SMILED TO MYSELF, I FELT THE SKY WIDEN. I FELT SO HAPPY THAT DAY, MY HEART WAS SO PLEASED. NO TEARS, NO MORE MISSING, NO MORE HURTED FEELING.

MY PRAYER CAME TRUE! I DOES NOT LOVE HIM ANYMORE!!! I'M GLAD. I'M HAPPY FOR GIVING MY HEART A SPACE TO BREATH AND LETTING GO THE PAIN AND SORROW!!!

That is my puppy love. my hurted love. my unknown love. my one-handed love!NO REGRET!

Saturday, April 16, 2011

Aigoo...

aniya seyo...

i remember the first Korean drama i watched was Winter Sonata. It was on TV3 and dubbling of Chinese which i argued with my good friend that is a Chinese drama. But, later she told me it is a Korean drama. From that i realised there exists a country next to Japan; KOREA. Its written form is a blend of both Japanese and Chinese caligraphies. If you notice their looks also a blend of Chinese and Japanese (For the fact that before i only know these two nations! haha).

MOst of Korean story lines is cliche; class divisions, poor- rich,weak- strong, objection of relationship by family and so on which could also be found in other non-Korean story as well except Hollywood.

BUT, WHAT MAKES THE KOREAN DRAMA FEVER DOES NOT FADE?
Yes, the story line is cliche, sometimes you can predict the ending.

BUT, what differenciate their works with other is they compliment with other factors throughout the movies,; with good scenery, cinematography, handsome and beautiful looks of actors/actresses, what more significant is the songs!!!


i still remember the melody of every songs played in Winter Sonata which i watched in 2003! i can identify whenever i heard each of those songs. It still remains in my memory.




Korea promotes its country through its magnificent dramas and movies. They choose the best and most beautiful settings that reperesent the theme of the story with very glorious and mesmerising scenery of its four seasons. Hence we got to know, Jeju Island, one of the settings of Winter Sonata.

I just finished watching Secret Garden starred by cute dimple of Hyun Bin and Ji won. The so-called garden is very stunning and beautiful! but i found out that is the location of environmental institute.



Personally, i think Korean language is hard to master due to different sound that we articulated since young. But, i personally able to grasp some phrases. I notice female students downloading the K-pop, watching its video musics, knows every groups of the singers but, they could not follow the lyrics!so sad!

I wish to visit Korea one day, i want to see by my own naked eyes the real scenery of those places. Those places are best for romantics dramas/ movies.

I think Korean drama is progressing together with their electronics-technological advancement. It is enjoyable to watch and finish of more that 20 episodes, because it is complemented with good acting, beautiful/ handsome actors/actresses, mesmerising scenery and beautiful background musics and its fashions!It hardly to make your eyes tired! its addictive!

I always adore Bae Young Jun (Jun Sang in Winter Sonata) and now after watching Secret Garden I start to fall in love with cutey dimple of Hyun Bin (Jo Won).


lastly, their language attracts me to lean my ears everytime i watch the movies and listen to the songs. It's not a tone language like Thai and Chinese. it's quite baldy but it is very catchyat the same time.LANGUAGE REPRESENTS THE CULTURE! AND CULTURE IS POSSED BY PEOPLE!

Whenever you watch Korean drama, pay attention to the culture they practiced. They bow to the elder, they use polite language markers [aigesyimnida, yea. arasso]on whenever they talk to the elder. They stand up when the leader of the family comes to sit and only sit after. they eat soups, seafoods and vegetable as well! KIMCHI!!!

My sister learnt by herself Korean language through dramas, dictionary and skyping with Korean online friend!

lots of god things you can learn from this nation. They are very polite and humble [as much as i saw on tv]. but i believed so!

It is not surprinsing. They are oriental nation! they are neighboor of Japan as well! JAPAN A VERY POLITE COUNTRY!

Aigoo....aja-aja fighting! sarang he-yo. chuayo.agesyimnida. smile with kimchi! rice cakes!kake... :)